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i'm sorry you're hearing this
didn't wanna tell you
are you happy now?
cuz surely i'm not
and sending down
so far away
so far away
but you helped when it was too late
and that's pitiful
what about when i was down?
you didn't help when i need
but seems like a good man
when you helped me out
as times grew harder
i stopped coming to you
didn't even notice
and i knew you wouldn't
at the end of the day
i never told you
cuz why hadn't i
left when too late?
for you knew
all the things i had
kept below, kept away
wouldn't tell a soul
all because you hadn't care
till it helped out your image you made
you're a good man, good man
and when i'm gonna, when i'm gonna go home
and when i'm gonna go, you're gonna see
you're gonna know how it looks to be alone
when no ones there for me
it's all your fault, no
should've done it 'fore i knew you
'fore i knew you
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oh, no wits go by
cuz all i had never took a chance
pulls down, pulls down
cuz hadn't seen you in too long now
months feel like a year gone by
and that's how it's gonna be
till i see your face again
and your hands in mine
cuz i saw was pain alone
but you made me wanna go home
but cry tears of joy, i know now
cuz i hadn't seen you in so long
and september said i'll find you again
find me to cry all alone
but i go home now
and i dont feel anything
made me come to school
cuz i hated all that time
and i dont even know
and i dont even know
and in last hugs
cuz i dont feel i know why
maybe the oak trees
will tell me what i gotta do
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i'll look up at everyone
as i ascend to light
and that's how it is
i'll be okay
for i don't know if life's worth livin'
cuz you made me happen to guess
and all i have now
and all you see there
forgot to give all my answers away
cuz i knew somethin' was gonna go down
and it ain't gonna be now how i saw
so i hold on just to see you with another
i don't even feel my tears rushing down my face
cuz it's not even how i expected to go
and if i hold on just a little longer now maybe i'm gonna know
what took so long for the answer to go
and now i lost and nevergone
from your head
and i'll be away physically
and goodbye now
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who he is, one of my closest friends i have to me
brightens up the days i thought were emptier than i could be
even if my tears run down my eyes quietly, he'd be there
i am everglad that i can share how i feel
so much helpful words he hands right down for me to stay
all the time i wish i could see him someday
there is pain i feel within me cuz i talk down to myself
but i know within my eyes i'm just afraid to be alone
all is growing in my mind now and i want to leave the earth
what if he is only here for me cuz feel the later guilt
and i still cry upon the aching but with everything he said
i've been brighter than the daylight
you are gold and you are love
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you don't, you don't even need to go
you don't gotta leave so soon
you hide when you see my face
but i do that too
truly i miss the time i spent
i spent with you
you made me feel well again
you were a good friend
and the last time i saw you
they were gone for hours at a time
it took us all up until i cried
couldn't let the tears go out and now i wish i
had let myself go
myself go
and after all i've known
and all the things i been through
it felt well so don't go
you listen well you don't belittle
and i miss you now
it's only been an hour since i saw you
but then before now it's been longer
i only see you once a month
and i, i miss you so
and i, miss you so
ah ah, ah ah ah ah
ah ah, ah ah, ah ah
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you go,
you go now and up above
cuz painstakes will never find
and no one holds you like i did
that's what you said
i'm gonna go to sleep and dream
of something that'll never be
i go at night just to hurt me
cuz i know you're gonna show up there
and i hold on
cuz i had long enough
wish you were here again
only left cuz i was scared
you were far long gone
so to change things up and never see
and i lose my side
i beat onto what i've known
so maybe gonna see
my home where all we had's gonna be there
papers on the ground
i ripped them cuz i don't wanna believe
i had all i couldn't be
and everything's gonna go
you stand there
with cords around my neck and they're gonna hold me down
and my new friends
didn't like how you treated me
but they're soon gone
or for lack of better words, i'm gonna leave
so hold on just a little longer
you'll maybe find my heart
keep hold, keep hold
and ruin what we had
so come before
i hold on,
holding on, holding on
happening soon
where my heart
wear my ashes
and they're gone
im so thirsty
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old nothing happens
and nobody changes
or hears all i've known
then maybe i don't
and best not to say
and keep on going along
there might be later on light
but that's under my eyes
where once i held so close
part of you whispering to me
it's telling me to go again, "you're not well or wrong"
where struggling streams would wrap around
can't be who i am
cuz who i was is all i'll ever be
secretly stronger in the air
and if they didn't before they won't care
they won't know
all i need was gone before my eyes
i don't imagine you like i did
not the same uphold and i don't see my light
feel the eyes of all who
all your hate and your suffering
it's not my fault i live here
low
the low
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i feel the same and different at the same time, maybe the new year's placebo or something. either way, feelin extribulant this post christmas
released January 20, 2024
